This is a picture of a whole bunch of our Trust bracelets. Aren’t they beautiful?
I was talking with Adam the other day while making a large order. He was sitting on the couch, I was on the floor. After making a bracelet, I would add them to the pile and write a tick mark on my inventory tracker. The order was for 150, I was up to 111.
I felt successful, but I also felt a deep sense of sadness.
You see, I have been asking God for a sign, to speak into my life and guide me in an obvious way. I was, and still am, walking through a time of uncertainty and really desire answers to my questions. He always seemed to be so present in my life. But for some reason, God has been silent. I kept asking and asking and praying and praying…but nothing. Why? Why will you not say anything? The questions became desperate after some time.
I was getting so discouraged.
I took a deep breath and let it go. I looked to Adam and said, “I don’t know what we are going to do…how are we going to make it?” Adam just looked at me and said, “I don’t know. We just need to pray.”
My response was, “Ugh! I’ve been praying!!! It’s taking too long, I don’t know what God wants me to do, wants for our family, I’m so bumfuzzled.”
It went quiet.
I looked down at my pile of newly made bracelets. This was our latest design with lots of potential. I smiled and jokingly said, “Hey Adam! It’s a mountain of TRUST!”
And that was when it dawned on me. That was when God spoke, “Mara, trust ME.”
Wow! My joke wasn’t a joke, after all, it was what I had been longing for. God wants me to Trust Him, because He holds my future, He holds my family and He is in control.
It was both a sobering and lovely moment all in one. I dropped my head, “Thank you, God, for speaking. Thank you for being here in my fear and discouragement. You are so present.”
And so, I’m going to trust. I’m going to take His advice and have a mountain of trust. Because He knows everything and has my life plan, my best at heart.
I don’t find it to be a coincidence that our latest order was a large one of Trust. Doesn’t God work in the neatest and most humbling ways?
Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight.”